Our backyard after a December storm. Happy Wordless Wednesday!
Monthly Archives: January 2008
I’ve been needing something to jumpstart my blogging recently. The biggest problem I have is really that I have so many things I want to say, I’m having a hard time condensing into something coherent and meaningful. So I’m going to start with Sunday Scribblings this week, we’ll see how it turns out. The prompt this week is: “Fellow Travelers”
When my son was born, I was in medical school and slogging through my last year of clinical rotations. There were several of us who had babies that year, and I was the lucky recipient of commiseration, advice, and general moral support from my fellow travelers on the motherhood and medicine pathway. We pumped breast milk together in the call rooms, we traded tips about baby food, and all used the same babysitter. It was a wonderful thing, to have friends who knew, really knew what it was like.
Now that I’m a resident, I’m the only intern with a child, and actually one of the few women in my class who is even married. Most of the women in my intern class are single, stick-thin marathon runners who are into going out post-call and singing karaoke. They tell me, “I don’t know how you do it”, and the truth is, I don’t either. I have no one who gets this. My mother is nearby and God love her, is tremendously supportive, but only in the general sense of offering desperately needed encouragement and occasional help with laundry. At work, I feel like I’m a world apart. From a career standpoint, I’m just starting out and I am so far down the ladder sometimes I’m not sure I’m even standing on the bottom rung. But from a social standpoint, I’ve been married almost five years, I have an amazing little boy, and I wish there was someone who I could see in the hallway at 2am and trade a knowing smile with.
But there isn’t. And it’s okay, most of the time. I’m thinking of myself as a trailblazer. So what if I’m different than everyone I’m working with? I love my life, I love my job, and I adore my family. At home I’m mama and wife: chief tickler and bath-giver, and head-scratcher extraordinaire. At work, I’m an intern: order-writer, scut-monkey, shaker of hands and caffeine queen. For now at least, I’m a lone traveler.
Rachelle at Magpie Girl hosts a lovely group of bloggers known as Small is Beautiful, bloggers like me who have stories to tell, no ads, no sponsorship, just our quiet corners of pixels and bytes. She has asked us to make a list of our top seven posts from the year to share. Here are mine, in non-chronological order.
4. Match Day
7. Frog Song
Here’s to more creativity, more stories, more laughter and less tears in 2008!
Just about one year ago, I made a list of ideas for things I’d like to accomplish in the upcoming year, an “Uber-list”. Truthfully, I’d forgotten about it until I was looking back at past blog-posts for an Small is Beautiful Top 7 list. Here is my one-year old list, along with whether or not they were realized.
1.Eat dinner at the table, not in front of the television. (Definitely! I think we’ve eaten nearly every meal in our new house of seven months at the table. So much more civilized.)
2. Spend some time outside every day. (Over the summer I was able to get outside more frequently, but dang it is COLD in the North in December. Not to mention that snow stuff.)
3. Eat at least some fruit every day. (Definitely not. I think I just don’t like fruit enough to eat it every day.)
4. Take the stairs instead of the elevator. (The only time I take the elevator at work is when I’m on call and it’s 3 AM and I have to go up 5 floors to get to my call room. Otherwise, it’s the stairs both up and down. )
5. Floss more often. (Ha ha. I also haven’t been to the dentist in…I can’t remember. Not good.)
6. Take better care of my skin. (Well, I don’t know if I’m taking better care of it but it seems to be happier since we moved North. I do moisturize more frequently.
7. Write letters to my grandmother. (Unfortunately, no. This is going on my list for 2008 too.)
8. Create something every day. (Other than medical progress notes, not so much. Maybe good will counts for something?)
9. Smile at strangers. (I think I’m probably known as the weird smiling intern.)
10. Stretch daily. (How about weekly?)
11. Listen to music instead of the TV. (This we have done. Thank God for Napster.)
12. Leave my husband love notes. (No love notes, but I do try to tell him often not only how much I love him, but how much I appreciate his being in my life.)
13. Eat less prepared food and more of what I make myself. (Getting there. Our big chest freezer in the basement helps.)
14. Practice compassion with all my patients. (Sometimes a struggle, particularly when admitting the same patient for the third time in a month for something which is pretty much her fault. But I think I’m pretty successful, I hope so anyways.)
15. Daydream less and DO more. (Not so many daydreams over the past year, too busy with living.)
16. Stop comparing my body to other women’s. (Semi-successful, although when all my colleagues are newly married, nulliparous marathon runners, it is still a challenge.)
17. Keep my house tidier. (Um…I think I know where my vacuum is located. And I can see the floor in my living room. Better than nothing.)